Not everyone is a runner. Not everyone can do hours of yoga. Not everyone wants to lift weights. Not everyone wants abs. Not everyone aspires to be shredded. Not everyone wants to count calories. Not everyone wants to be vegan. Not everyone likes the gym.
We’re all different. So stop worrying about what others will think, and just find what works for you. Not anyone else. YOU.
I’m not looking for a date. Or a relationship or even someone to hook up with. My friend was completely right. When we stop looking, men come out of the woodwork. I had a guy ask me for my number tonight and had another flirt with me while I was at work. I was honestly giving off the “I’m not looking” vibe. Clearly something is going on. Can anyone explain this?
I’m blogging this post while sitting at a Starbucks waiting for my friend. I’m pretty sure I just had the opportunity to have a 3-some. Perhaps a 4-some. With my friend included. But something inside was saying “no no. No way this is absolutely wrong” so I left. I’m waiting for my friend to finish.
I’m not sure why. Because I’m sure maybe a month ago I would have said “hell yeah.” But now. Well maybe I’m just at a different place and trying to listen and read the internal signs that say yes or no.
The thought of hooking up with them is hot. But actually following through….. Maybe I’m just a big pussy.
Anyways. I went out into the gay scene last night. Super weird. The more I’m out of it and I Jump back in I realize the more of an out cast I am. Meaning I feel like I don’t fit the gay mold.
I never think my yoga is working until I step foot into those situations or places and that’s when I start to become more aware of myself and my surroundings. Thanks yoga. …. That’s all.
I’m poor, Can’t afford Crossfit right now, tried doing a crossfit workout at the gym, barely any free weights to do them at the Planet Fitness I go to. I feel hopeless.